Kuya Shad asked if I was okay. I said of course I was. At that moment, I was excited but nervous. I kept singing “Perfect” by One Direction on my mind and when I was left alone in the bridal car when we reached the church. I wanted to keep calm but I knew deep inside that I am already very nervous. When the car was about to park, I saw Nayj outside the church and he went back inside the moment he saw Hatchi.
The rain hasn’t stopped but I see my closest friends and family arrive one by one in Ellinwood Malate Church. I felt happy considering they still prefer to go to my wedding given the bad weather. They were on their umbrellas, protecting their beautiful dresses and shiny shoes, each of them taking a few glances on the bridal car and thinking if I was inside. (Hi guys, yes I’m here but I can’t go out yet. Haha.) I was also thankful to the people around the church helping the guests get out of their car while enduring the challenge of the pouring rain.
After waiting, I saw my two bridal assistants on the way back to the bridal car. I think that was my queue. It’s my turn to walk down the aisle.
I grew up in this church. It has been my dream to walk in its long aisle and get married. Right when they were assisting me before they opened the door, I kind of panicked because one of the small doors were open and I see few guests already peeking in. I also hear my bridal march song being played (You and I by John Legend), almost into its chorus and I haven’t even walked yet! I have to keep calm, I reminded myself. Before they opened the door, I took a long breath, closed my eyes, shared a little prayer with God and then I knew I was ready.
When they opened the door, I saw my parents at the middle of the aisle waiting for me. I think my father looked okay, he wasn’t crying and my mom fixed her eyes on me. All guests all stood and watched as I slowly walked.
I was walking slow, savoring the moment as I know this is the first and last time I would ever walk in this church as a bride. Is this how it was on movies, I thought. I saw familiar faces inside the church saying hi to me as I walked past by them. I kept my gaze to my groom waiting for me, I saw Nayj looking handsome in his suit. And then I started to tear up. I can’t control my tears. I’m not crying because I was lonely but I was extremely happy as it was finally happening. I am finally getting married to the love of my life.
I saw my guests taking a picture on their seats. They were very obedient, I thought, giving space to the photographers to take shots of a very special moment. When they saw me tear up, they kept telling me to smile. (Oh shoot, right, I should smile because a lot of people were taking photos.) I had to stop for a few minutes, take a deep breath, contain myself and then I started to walk again. Wow, this isn’t easy. A nervous walk, but a good kind of nervous.
When I saw Nayj at the end of the aisle, I saw him tear up. And then OMG, my tears are starting to fall again. This is really happening. And then when I looked to my right, my father was crying again. And then everyone in the church were crying. According to my friends, hindi lang daw sa labas bumaha. Pati rin daw sa loob.
Nayj told me that the reason why he cried was because he was touched on how he was accepted in our family ever since I brought him home and introduced him to my parents. He was so thankful to my parents as they have always been there and accepted him as their own son even if we weren’t married yet. It was a very touching moment I would never forget.
When we finally reached the altar, Pastor Gane Deslate took over and got us married.
At the end, Pastor Gane was like, “Anu pang hinihintay niyo? You may kiss the bride.”
After the ceremony and the photos with family and friends in the church, we had one last stop. That is to release the doves inside the church. So while we were holding the doves, we listened very carefully to the directions being told by the photographers. They said, “Kiss the doves, then release after.”
So what we did was, we kissed the doves themselves, NOT kiss them to each other. Every remaining guests in the church laughed at us. We had no idea what we did wrong. We understood the directions differently. Halatang walang alam sa kasal. And funny thing was, hindi kami nag-usap. We did the same thing at the same time. Kung hindi pa naman ba ako maniniwala na para kami sa isa’t isa, ewan ko nalang. One of the cutest highlights of our booboos.
It was rain on our wedding day. Look at us!